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Reflections of the Butterfly

1/31/18

On the eve of the January Blue Moon and just before Imbolc, I found myself in a conversation with my wyrd sister Tonya.  As we spoke, the topic of transformation and emergence came to light, and I felt my muse fluttering inside my breast, straining against the cocoon of human skin that my soul has chosen in this life. The soul of a butterfly resides within my heart and my beautiful wings move slowly in tune with my heartbeat. I sometimes feel that I’m a cross between a butterfly and dragonfly…each different yet the same. Each an avatar for transformation and change. I have a special affinity to dragonflies as they have appeared in points of my life that mark the beginning of change and growth. But the butterfly also speaks to me with its fragility and short lifespan. Each a lesson within itself. This thought brings to mind some of my old writings about transformation. The Lady Within, the first step on this journey, it was part of the tapestry of my wyrd and soul revealing. I find myself constantly circling my Nordic roots. But I find myself sorely lacking on knowledge of such, I just have a knowing of things. I feel inadequate to others who boast more wisdom than me and that feeling of not measuring up plagues me like a persistent mosquito, constantly buzzing around my ear. I’m trying hard to let go of these feelings but find that it is an uphill battle, sometimes a step backward when I allow it to take up space in my head for long periods of time.

Last night’s ritual was about letting go of some of these insecurities and I feel a little lighter but still trudge on, keeping my inner Valkyrie in my back pocket just in case I need her to fight through those thought patterns. So, I move on and keep a positive frame of mind and live my life, seeing where my errant inner child takes me. Sometimes she takes me on fun adventures, sometimes not so fun. The not so fun adventures usually mean I must reflect inward and flit among the shadows that emerge. I must confront those insidious truths that I really don’t want to hear. They are necessary for my spiritual growth.

A wisp of a poem finds its way to my fingers as I type these words…

A cocoon glistened on the old oak tree

a butterfly with sparking wings rests inside

Waiting for its time to emerge from the confines of fate

Transforming and becoming in tune with the soul inside.

I end this entry with hope for the adventures to come, for the paths that are yet to be shown. For new and old friends to join my soul tribe. A merry wind blows me on this new course.

As always, I remain

Earthwindwalker

 

 

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Day 1 and 2 of Magical Talisman Challenge

Day 1 and 2 of Magical Talisman Challenge.
Day 1, a moving meditation with Ansuz,
I received goosebumps and the hairs standing up on my arms whilst doing this moving meditation. After the meditation, clarity came.
brought to me by DahkaBrakha and Wardruna
Day 2
 
Cleansing with Palo Santo and Kanaga Water
 
Rune meditation for the design for my talisman. As I sat in meditation before my altars, I was given the design for my talisman. Next step is get the wood I need to create it.
Background music by
Wardruna
Ansur and Solringen
Peter Gundry
Wildling
Vioblainn
 
Enya
Book Of Days
Deva Premal
Om Gan Ganapataye Namaha
 
Incense
Shamanwood
 

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Shamanic Musings-The Call of the Stars

The Call of the Stars

By Earthwindwalker

 

The fire spirits dance in the wind as we stand in the meadow of ancient tree people.

Silvery threads of light shone through the tree tops as the birds sing their song. The lodge, made from the bodies of the tree people hugging the cloth that lay on the branches in ceremony, stands there and greets us.

The crackle of the flames fills the glade as we watch the fire move in intricate patterns within, smoke rising to the sky and towards the lodge. The trail of smoke moves with purpose as the sweet aroma of the herbs blends in the fire.

I am drawn to the flames, the mosquitoes flitting around us, landing and absorbing their sacrifice of blood from each of us. Sometimes just landing and watching the flames with us. The connection to all things is very present here. It’s a feeling in the air, the smell of woods in your nostrils, the songs of the birds, and the frogs intoning their mysteries to us.

I am exhilarated but intimidated, the feeling of powerful medicine sings in my blood. The purification is close at hand as the flames dance higher, binding us all together in harmony and solemnness as we line up, the elders first. We remove our material possessions one by one as we watch the lodge change in color. The lodge becomes a doorway into our souls, one that a few are reluctant to enter. What wisdom will be had there? What knowledge passed onto you? Where were will you go??

As each of us move towards the entrance, we lean down and move forward slowly on our knees and form into a circle, feminine energy is strong here, each of us carrying knowledge in with us. We are all starting on our journeys, some of us earlier than others, some of us have been on our journey for many years. The wisdom of the grandmothers to the maidens passing through us to each other,

The heat of the lodge overwhelms as we find our place in the circle around the rock people, the ones with the medicine to share. You can feel their ancient knowledge in there, a heaviness of spirit descends upon you. You feel the elders here. The ones who have walked before us and passed into their next plane of existence.

I lean back against the walls of the lodge, my body slightly bent and my legs crossed as I distribute the energy from the stones into my body. The energy is heavy but calming. The warmth that the stones radiate embraces you as the door to the lodge is closed for the first round of prayers. Sweat drips from your pores as the elder pours water on the stone people. You hear the sizzle of the water hitting their bodies.

My mind is buzzing, the spirit presence is strong. Time becomes irrelevant here. You are here as long as you need to be. You are here because you need healing whether it be soul or physical. Each one of us that walked through the doorway is here for a reason.

The prayers are sung, the notes of sound cut through my fear of knowledge yet to be heard. My mind kicks in and starts analyzing things and I heard a voice telling me to stop and listen. The medicine you need is here but you are trying to hinder it. Stop suffocating it with material things.

I relax my body, the pain that I feel slowly disappears, the sweat coming from my body goes unnoticed. My mind is silenced and I just feel at peace. As the final round begins, my mind tries to take over again and I’m fighting to let go and soar.  I send prayers to the stone people to release my anger and pain for things that have been happening to me and stifling my spiritual growth. My chest becomes tight and as I begin to lose the battle between my mind and spirit, I am thrown into a vision.

My eyes close and I am no longer there in that lodge. I’m soaring from my physical body, spirit flying. Vistas of beauty appear. The rivers flow quickly past me, the desert sands undulate, and forests move past me.  I slow in my flight and look up into a night sky with a million stars and utter calm fills my soul. As I look up, Grandmother Spider walks in front of me and is joined by the four legged and the feathered, a wolf moves in beside me, a panther slinks forward, an eagle flies in from the left and a hawk from the right, and an owl flies in front of the spider. They all move forward in unison and blend into another. An ancient voice speaks and tell me to let go of what holds me back. We are all connected, what you feel is what we feel and you are not alone. We take it all into ourselves and give it back into the earth beneath our feet and the sky above our heads. It is not important in the web of life; the pattern needs balance and for this balance you must let go. You are energy formed from stardust and your physical form is temporary, it is just one of many forms and moves forward onto the next, each one interconnected and woven together into a larger and broader pattern. Time is a construct of the human mind. Time is irrelevant. It limits growth. You are a creator as well as a destroyer as we all are. Acknowledge this and you will begin to see the mysteries and the patterns that are outside of your perception. Cool breeze flows through me, refreshing and light. The beat of the drum far away call me back, the song becomes louder and awakes me from my vision. I fall back into my physical body and feel the heat but am refreshed. A coolness flows over my face and fills my body, relaxing me and I sit there in silence as the pipe is shared. The tightness of my chest is released to the stones and I feel renewed.

We crawl out of the lodge touching the earth with our hands and knees and I look up into the sky and everything sparkles and shines with an inner light. The air feels lighter and like an old friend’s embrace. I stand up on wobbly knees and draw strength from the earth beneath my feet. I am offered water and it fills my body and refreshes me. I am healed and I feel everything around me. I am ready to move forward in my journey, reborn, and welcoming whatever the future holds for me.

 

 

 

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Shamanic Musings-The Call of the Web

THE CALL OF THE WEB

By Earthwindwalker Powers

She heard the call of the drum that leads to her transformation…. a heartbeat deep within leading her to a sacred place. There were others around but she did not focus on them. She focused on her breath and her heartbeat, the words lost in the silence of the grass, in this place between the earth and the sky. A messenger appeared on the ground…. a spider with an 8 on his back appeared at her feet. She watched as the spider walked towards the east…. she followed him there to a grove of trees that beckoned. She sat at the edge of the grove and looked within, a pattern emerged as the trees breathed their song. Her eyes closed and images appeared, of spider legs creating a web within and around the trees. The spider spoke, her voice clear but firm. We are all connected in a web of life, each drop of water connects to the dirt beneath our feet, each blade of grass burst forth from this marriage of the two elements…. the strands sway grasping each breath of life and connecting to each other…a subtle tug responds in kind…the web wavers but stands firm becoming stronger. Prisms of color spring from within each life, subtle hues glistening in the sunlight. The wind blows through her hair, playfully caresses it and she feels reborn, her heart blooms and cries in delight as each strand of the web moves around her body. Soft but strong, yielding slightly as she moves her way through the branches and the roots of the trees. She is calm and content, in awe of the beauty of the mother. Her eyes fall to the pages in her hand, writing flows from her fingers, a picture emerges, the spider rests in the middle of the webs, cascades of red and gold flow from her chest spinning the threads that flows from her body and connects to the trees. The observer moves forward and becomes one with the grandmother, the pulse of life flows through her body and the web is woven, the strands streaming from her fingers which become legs and the silken touch of the web caresses her face. We are all one, we are all interwoven, our fates entwined. Fear should not enter your thoughts, young one, as you are protected by millions. Pinpricks of light fills your body with warmth. Peace is found there within the web of time, within the body of the weaver. She is the weaver of life and destiny, bound by the universe to create. Connections are made, but just a sliver, a silken caress of a dream fills your soul and calmness flows through you. You are the creator of your life, of your fate, the power is within you. Your soul has seen a thousand lifetimes, each one a little closer to the pattern of the universe, an awakening of the mind and body. You become the keeper of your story, the writer of your soul.  As she is filled with wonder and awe, she looks down onto the skin of the trees, to the fibers of paper, the words flow and a spider ally appears, tiny yet significant, a message given. She breathes in and shares her gratitude for the lesson. Onto the next adventure, her soul renewed and ready to begin this new weave in the tapestry of the web. Her heart soars and she becomes one with the universe.

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HTS 30 DAY MAGICAL ITEM CHALLENGE-DAYS 27-28 (December 28-29)

HTS 30 DAY MAGICAL ITEM CHALLENGE-DAYS 27-28 (December 28-29)

Day 27-I just did some rune research for my sigils for the bowl.

12/28/16 Rune Sigil Work for the Bowl

OTHALA

RUNIC NUMBER 23

DEITY: ODIN

COLOR: DEEP YELLOW

ELEMENT: EARTH

ZODIAC/ASTROLOGICAL: FULL MOON

HEARTH, ANCESTORS, INHERITANCE

WARDRUNA-ODAL

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ALGIZ

RUNIC NUMBER 15

DEITY: HEIMDALL

COLOR: YELLOW

ELEMENT: AIR

ZODIAC: CANCER

PROTECTION, SAFE REFUGE, ROOTED AND REACHING FOR THE DIVINE

WARDRUNA-ALGIR

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FEHU

RUNIC NUMBER 1

DEITY: FREY, FREYJA

COLOR: LIGHT RED

ELEMENT: EARTH/FIRE

ZODIAC: ARIES

REWARD, WEALTH, NOURISHMENT

WARDRUNA-FEHU

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ANSUZ

RUNIC NUMBER 4

DEITY: ODINN/LOKI

COLOR: DARK BLUE

ELEMENT: AIR

ZODIAC/ASTROLOGICAL: VENUS

WISDOM, COMMUNICATION

WARDRUNA-ANSUR

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TIWAZ

RUNIC NUMBER 17

DEITY: TYR/TIW

COLOR: BRIGHT RED

ELEMENT: AIR

ZODIAC/ASTROLOGICAL: LIBRA

COURAGE, WARRIOR RUNE, NEGOTIATION RUNE

WARDRUNA-TYR

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WUNJO

RUNIC NUMBER 8

DEITY: ODINN, FRIGGA

COLOR: LIGHT BLUE

ELEMENT: ICE/WATER

ZODIAC/ASTROLOGICAL: LEO

HAPPINESS, EMOTIONAL SATISFACTION

WARDRUNA-WUNJO

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DAY 28 (DECEMBER 29TH)

Sage cleansing

Dragon’s Blood Incense

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Called in the Ancestors, Runevaettir, spiritual allies, and Odinn

Pulled the above runes

Galdr’d Ansuz and the above runes for the preparation.

Played the above video links as I carved my rune sigils.

9 rune sigils on the outside of the bowl-carved with dremel tool

Put the runes and herbs that I have been using in the bowl overnight for final infusion.

Thanked the ancestors, Runevaettir, spiritual allies, and Odinn for joining the blessing of the bowl.

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I had such a positive spiritual experience with this. I’m glad my co-founder and spirit sister Kimberly received this gift.  I wish her many positive things when she uses this prayer bowl.

 

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HTS 30 Day Magical Item Challenge-Days 23-26

HTS 30 DAY MAGICAL ITEM CHALLENGE-DAYS 23-26 (DECEMBER 24-27)

DECEMBER 24TH (DAY 23)

SAGE CLEANSING

JASMINE INCENSE

RUNEWORK WITH THE BOWL

CALLING IN ANCESTORS, RUNEVAETTIR, ODINN

SWING BAG 9 TIMES BEFORE PULLING

BREATH INTO THE RUNE BAG 3 TIMES

4 RUNES PULL

URUZ-STRENGTH RUNE

DAGAZ-COMPLETION

GEBU-GIFT

FEHU-WEALTH, GOOD LUCK

PLAYLIST:

WARDRUNA-URUR

WARDRUNA-DAGAR

WARDRUNA-GIBU

WARDRUNA-FEHU


DECEMBER 25, (DAY 24)

NOTHING WAS DONE


DECEMBER 26, (DAY 25)

SPACE CHANGE-ALTAR ROOM

DRAGON’S BLOOD INCENSE

BLUE CANDLE (HEALING)

SAGE CLEANSING

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CALL IN ANCESTORS, RUNEVAETTIR, ODINN

GALDR ANSUZ

SWING RUNE BAG 9 TIMES

CALL UPON ODINN AND RUNEVAETTIR TO PULL THE TRUE RUNES

BREATHE INTO BAG 3 TIMES

2 RUNE PULL

EIWAZ-CONNECTION, SPIRITUALITY

ALGIZ-CONNECTION TO THE DIVINE, MESSAGE, PROTECTION

DRAGON’S BLOOD IS OFFERING TO RUNEVAETTIR

PLAYLIST

WARDRUNA-EHWAR

WARDRUNA-ALGIR


DECEMBER 27 (DAY 26)

NOTHING OFFICIAL DONE BUT I WENT TO LOOK AT THE BOWL AND FOUND 2 COMPLETELY DIFFERENT RUNES IN THERE. EITHER I WAS OUT OF HERE IN MY TRANCE AND PUT THE WRONG RUNES DOWN OR THEY SWITCHED ON ME.

IHWAZ-MOVEMENT TOWARDS ENLIGHTENMENT, HARMONY, LOVE AND PEACE.

TIWAZ-LOYALTY, FAIRNESS, VICTORY

 

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HTS 30 Day Magical Item Challenge-Days 7-11

Day 7 (12/8/16)

Materials:

Psychic Tarot

Prayer Bowl

Same herbs still in bowl

Music:

Tonya Threet’s Lullaby

Listen to Lullaby Here

Ansuz Cleansing Galdr

Call in the Ancestors and Spiritual Allies

 Cards:

Rest and Recuperate-Number 4, Rest and Recuperate, Healing energy sent to bowl. Emotional taxing experience and time to heal.

 Music:

Enya-One by One

May It Be-Hayley Westenra

In the Hollow of Trees-Gary Stadler/Singh Kaur


 

Day 8 (12-9-16)

Psychic Tarot

Prayer Bowl

Same herbs still in bowl

Helpers:

Mister

 Cards:

Truth-See truth within yourself to find clarity. Share your spiritual truth.

Passion Ignited-Stir up your passion. Spirit card. New beginnings/ideas. Find your spiritual truth, your passion becomes ignited.

 Held the bowl to my heart chakra while listening to 1st song

While holding the bowl, I got some feelings of presence, enough that it jerked my head back. I asked the presence to not bother me unless it pertained to ritual.

While listening to 2nd song, flash of image came, shy looking fox or dog, very expressive face. Someone giving me a message.

Continued to listen to music-see links below

Loreena Mckennitt-Mystic’s Dream

Leaves’ Eyes-Ankomst

Ailein Duinn-Dan Ar Braz


 

Day 9- (12/10/16)

Materials:

Psychic Tarot

Prayer Bowl

Same herbs still in bowl

Pagan Magic Incense

Music:

8-minute meditation app

Cards:

Sacrifice-Prayer work is a sacrifice, you are sacrificing your control of the situation.

Love Begins- Once you let go of control of the situation, you will be able to move forward with Love.

 Call in the Ancestors and Spiritual Allies

Listened to 8-minute Meditation app while pulling cards for bowl

Listened to Music-See links below for music

 Deanta-Blacksmith

The High Kings-As I Roved Out

Qntal-Falling Star


Day 10 (12-11-16)

Materials:

Psychic Tarot

Prayer Bowl

Same herbs still in bowl

Helpers:

Mister

Cards:

Emotional Loss-This is one of the things you would use the prayer bowl for. Healing of oneself.

Throat Chakra-Light blue, Sound: HAM, Element-Sound, Keywords: I speak

Emotional Loss healed by sound/music (Throat Chakra)

Listened to music-See links below for music

Secret Garden-Moving

Loreena Mckennitt-Samain Night

Mordred’s Lullaby-Heather Dane


 

Day 11 (12-12-16)

Materials:

Psychic Tarot

Prayer Bowl

Same herbs still in bowl

Pagan Magic Incense

Cards:

Destiny-This is a useful card for using the bowl for scrying

Memories of Love-This is a useful card for using the bowl for memory recall.

 

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HTS 30 Day Magical Item Challenge-Days 4-6

Hollow Tree Society 30 Day Magical Item Challenge-Days 4-6

I’m combining my journal entries because it’s getting too hard to do them nightly. So, I’m going to update my journal every 3 days.

I do a sound recording of what I do because it’s too easy to forget what I’ve done when I’m in ritual headspace.


DAY 4

I cleanse my sacred space every day with sage and rotate different incenses. I also invite my ancestor and spiritual allies to join me in the ritual

Dragon Blood Incense

Did a card pull with my Psychic Oracle deck.

#2 Sacral Chakra card from Psychic Oracle deck.

Colors-Orange

Sound-Vam

Element-Water

Characteristics-Creative movement such as dancing and sexuality.

This is interesting because I have incorporated dance when I started working with the bowl.

The herbs also decided they didn’t want to be separated and mixed together. So, I put the card on top of the herbs overnight.

Playlist:

Spineee by Gary Stadler

Close your Eyes-Bernward Koch

Nocturne for Guitar and Strings-Jerry LaRocca

 


DAY 5

I cleanse with sage and call in the ancestors and spiritual allies.

Dragon’s Blood Incense

Continue with herbs

Card Pull

Heart Chakra

Color: Green

Element: Air

Characteristics: Unconditional love and healing

Playlist:

Sirena-Faun

Song and Dance-Blackmore’s Night

An Toll Dubh-Runrig


 

DAY 6

I cleanse with sage and call in the ancestors and spiritual allies.

Dragon’s Blood Incense

Continue with herbs

2 Card Pull

Universe/Love Begins

Mummer’s Dance by Loreena McKennitt

Titanic Set by Gaelic Storm

Ordinary Miracle by Sarah McLachlan

 

 

 

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HTS 30 Day Magical Item Challenge-Day 1

12-2-16- Day 1 of 30 Day Magical Item Challenge

Materials for the Ritual:

Incense burner

Dragons’ Blood Incense

Kanaga water

Prayer/Offer/Spellwork Bowl

Owl Rattle

I started my ritual around 9 pm in my altar room. To clear my ritual space, I lit and burned Palo Santo and went around the altar room and then smudged myself. I put a soft blanket on the floor and placed my incense burner in front of it and burned dragon’s blood incense. I faced east.

I moved the bowl over the incense smoke, took a cloth and washed the bowl in kanaga water.  While I was cleansing the bowl, I intoned Ansuz rune 9 times as I moved the cloth in a clockwise motion.

I called upon my ancestors, the deities I work with, the rune spirits, and my animal guides to join me in my ritual.

After the circle was open, I intoned Ansuz, Algiz, and Othalla 3 times each while holding the bowl. I also sang into the bowl.

I was told to play 3 songs and just let Pandora shuffle it how it was meant to.

First song:

Tine Beltaine by Omnia

Tine Beltaine by Omnia

 

With this song, I was told to dance in a circle as I played my owl rattle while the song played. I took the bowl and danced around the circle clockwise and acknowledged the directions, starting with East, North, West, South

The energy was amazing during this part, all the hairs on my arms and behind my neck stood up and it tingled all over my body. It was almost as if I was out of my body and someone else stepped in and infused the bowl with primal energy.

Second Song:

Kuoppa by Tenhi

With this song, I just sat on the blanket and put my hand on the bowl while infusing it with my energy. Olivia came up and sniffed the bowl then laid behind me

Song 3

Full Moonlight Dance

Tina Malia

I wasn’t sure about this one but there must be a reason why this song came up. I sat with the bowl here as well just holding it.

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After the songs played, I made the video of what I was doing and then closed the circle, thanking all my allies.

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The Song of the Drum

The Song of the Drum

By

Heather Powers

10/10/16

Have you ever felt beauty but it scared you because it was so raw and open? A comment by a kindred sister spurred me to write this story of my drum. My drum, a muse within itself, led me on a dance of spirit and it was achingly beautiful and I want to feel that again. Control has been an issue with me…her claws gripping my head, screaming like a banshee. It’s difficult for me to let go of control, making me physically uncomfortable but I guess it’s one of my lessons to learn which has been a difficult one. One day a few years ago, my drum decided to take me on a journey, one where I lost that bitch called control. Vibrant energy flowed from the spirit of the drum, memories reeled in from the bison from which the drum was made. Strength radiated from the drum and I had no idea what dance the drum would swirl me in, a whirlpool of rawness and beauty that hasn’t been replicated since.

I love drum circles, they are my salve, my healing. When I play, my mind opens and expands and I see raw beauty, pure spirit. As I play the drum, the beat resonates deep within my soul. I connect with the energy that lies within. I feel the bison call….my other drum guardians join in the chorus but that is a story for another day.

This particular drum circle was the epicenter of my awakening, I found it but it’s became elusive in the years since. I feel it calling me but I fear it because of the control I will lose. My tenuous grip on control is unraveling and it seems as if events in my life are making me aware that I need to give up that control and have faith it will work out.

I started playing in this drum circle completely in control of my faculties for a while…but the drum had different plans unbeknownst to me. I started getting caught up in the emotions of the songs that we played but I was still in control. Then an extraordinary gentleman joined in the fray and started singing. That did it, my handle on my control fell apart and the journey began. I felt my spirit soaring and it scared me, oh how it scared me. But that didn’t matter, the drum sang and that was that. I remember falling into my head and another joined in. My pulse racing, edgy with anticipation but fear of what was to come.  As the drum sang, I too sang in a language I was unfamiliar with. I later found out it was Lakota. And I sang, my vocal cords straining with the tones of the song…And then that’s where my control got lost in a myriad of beats. The song from my lips gentle but heartbreaking. Tears fell down my cheeks, leaving their salty trails on my shirt. I felt utter beauty in those moments, a butterfly caught in flight, the colors sparkling in the sunlight. The song continued without stopping and then I just stood there. Fear’s fingertips touching my rational brain but also the utter certainty that I was safe that I wasn’t in harm’s way.

The beautiful moment was done, my wretched mind stepping in and bringing me back. With it came fear, the tendrils growing stronger. Strong enough to make me run out of the drum circle like a scared deer caught in headlights. I spent several minutes searching for help for someone to bring me back from the abyss. I finally found someone who knew what was happening and she sat me down. Snapped me back from the fear mindset and grounded me. She connected me back with my drum to see what messages I was meant to receive. For you see, I wasn’t getting it so they decided to take action. I sat there with tears in my eyes, the fear dwindling, and laid my forehead on the drum. The vision came then, I was in a leather dress, long brown hair, braided with feathers and in front of me was a papoose with a baby inside. The baby was crying and I felt fear in my heart that my baby was going to die and the only thing that would calm her was a lullaby. So I sang in this vision and it was the song that I sang in the drum circle. And the message I got was life is precious and it’s fleeting, and I should treasure it. Nothing else is important. Material possessions are meaningless in the grand scheme of things. The stars in the sky prove that, we are speck in the universe and everything will be okay and everything will work out. You just have to let go of the control and have faith.

 

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